Thursday, June 30, 2011

Talk about a long day!!!
Today my Boss's Boss came to my store today.
She talked to me for maybe twenty minutes.
I didnt see my Boss again for the rest of the day,
Sadly I have no idea how it went. So that is kinda makin me nervous.

On the homefront I must have my carpets cleaned!
So what is the best way to go about that with out paying and arm and a leg.
Because I can really only afford about three fingers.
Any info would be amazing!!

Monday, June 27, 2011


Anybody want to guess where my wonderful husband works now???
I will give you one guess...
We are so thankful for what God has done for us!
Hope you had a great weekend!!!!

Wednesday, June 22, 2011


I the last twenty four hours lasted a week. WOOF. Sara Bareilles is playing and I feel like writing.

So here we go

 Last night I found out that a couple that Jesse and I are very close to are....pregnant. I was at work when I learned this news. When I got home I asked Jesse how he found out. After he told me i wanted to say " I dont understand". All I could get out was "I", then I broke down. I have never cried like that in front of him like that before. He listened quietly as I told him everything that I was feeling.
  We spent the rest of the night talking about my being pregnant and miscarrying, which we had not really talked about in depth before.

I am learning that in life NOTHING turns out like we plan.
 The first seven month of our marriage went like so.
1. I lose my job (its a long story)
2. Jesse loses his job (one month later)
3. I get a new job
4. We get pregnant
5. We miscarry

Those are just the highlights.
That is not the life that we planned on having.
So how on earth should we plan our lives now.

P.S Sara Bareilles's musicis amazing!
Listen to this girl!!!

Monday, June 20, 2011

Happy Monday!!

    Jesse and I at a wedding in April.
I know the picture is not the best, I took it with my phone. :)
Hope your having a good day!

Thursday, June 16, 2011

A Poem..

“Just Those Few Weeks”
For those few weeks--
I had you to myself.
And that seems too short a time
to be changed so profoundly.

In those few weeks--
I came to know you. . .
and to love you.
You came to trust me with your life.
Oh, what a life I had planned for you!

Just those few weeks--
When I lost you.
I lost a lifetime of hopes,
plans, dreams and aspirations. . .
A slice of my future simply vanished overnight.

Just those few weeks--
It wasn't enough to convince others
how special and important you were.
How odd, a truly unique person has recently died
and no one is mourning the passing.

Just a mere few weeks--
And no "normal" person would cry all night
over a tiny, unfinished baby,
or get depressed and withdraw day after endless day.
No one would, so why am I?

You were those few weeks my little one
you darted in and out of my life too quickly.
But it seems that's all the time you needed
to make my life so much richer
and give me a small glimpse of eternity.

A big thank you to my sister in Christ Heidi for sharing this.

Sunday, June 12, 2011

I have nothing cute to put here.... that bugs me but whatev!

It is amazing to me how quickly emotions can change. Today we were visiting with family having a good time and I was in a good mood. Then its was time for the baby to wake from it's nap. Please know that I  LOVE this child, so much so that its not normal. However as soon as momma comes in the room with baby, I feel like I can't breathe and my heart starts racing!! My emotions did a complete 180!! I tried to stay in the room. That was an EPIC fail. bummer. I completely lose it, flip my sunglasses on to my face and high tale it to the bathroom so that no one can see my meltdown. After a few minutes I come out, Jesse knows what is going on and quickly gets me out of the house. It honestly shocked me how quickly I became unglued. How long is this going to last? WOOF. I have to go back to work tomorrow, I dont see this going well.
     On another note we are working on fixing up our extra bedroom. We have tons of sports things and we need a cool way of showing it off!!
     Til my next breakdown....:)

Saturday, June 11, 2011

A Change of Plans

 Earlier in the week I had posted that I would be sharing some fun news with all of you. However, we have a change of plans.... So here is the story. I am sharing it here because honestly only family read this blog. haha. Anyway, back to the story.
      In May Jesse and I learned that we were having a baby. We were very excited and jumped in to learning everything about pregnancy and parenting. Then a few days ago I began to lose the pregnancy. I wont go into detail. It has been a very long few days with lots of tears. Woof is all I can really say. ok so that was not a really long story.
      I will be posting more! I promise, because i found my cord  to my camera so I can unload pictures.

Wednesday, June 8, 2011

Things That Go BUMP in the Night!!

I have something to tell you!!! But not for a few more days!!! It will most likely not be posted to facebook, so check back for the COOLEST news ever!!!!!